Progress of life. . .

For these past few days I kept thinking about my life progress and as much as I hate to admit, my life does in a stagnant stage right now. I want to do something about it but what can I do? I am bound with my current 9-5 job. I read about young people achieve so many things just in their early young adult life. Very interesting and inspiring I must say. I need to think of ways to improve my income. An income is just not enough for me. I am thinking of doing business online and start to join Herbalife. Well honestly I am a Herbalife distributor but a passive one. I buy Herbalife products mostly for myself. When I registered as a distributor, I never thought of being active in business but now I think, why not, right? However, there are few problems which I need to sort out first before I can start again. The hardest is always the beginning right?

Diet? 

Ke laut....thought of following Atkins, but always failed to commit. Now I just focus on balance diet and exercises. Hopefully I will do just fine.

Kisah lalu...

Oleh kerana dah lama tak update blog kan, jadi harus la highlight satu perkara.

Mr.H dah kawen, with someone else definitely. So, all the previous entries related with Mr H, anggap je aku manusia biasa yang tak lepas dari meroyan akibat ditinggalkan.... horror rasa bila difkirkan balik

Penat rasa bersedih hati dengan orang yang tak hargai kita, if one day jumpa someone yang betul-betul hargai dan terima kita seadanya, kita akan in love forever dengan dia, one and only poyo tapi benar  

If this is madness, let me rave and rant

Outpourings of the mind, dreams left behind;

To my Past:

If this is sadness, let me grieve and weep

tears in the heart, sorrow and pain

of loved one passing, of days gone by.

Memories well into pool of passions

Devouring spirit, my being left awry.

Providence like a fickle master

Beyond human comprehension,

Beyond the heart compassion.

To my Future:

If this is music, let me dance and sing

Stirrings of the senses, awakenings of the body;

The child in my spirit, impulsive and free.

Pain grows into rhythm

Joy into melody

Lifting thought and nerve to an elevated high

Solace to the intellect, comfort to the heart

Inspiring like a symphony,

Soothing like a lullaby.

adapted from Between Madness and Poetry by Halimah Mohd Said

The Sun Mon, June 24, 2013

 

rasa itu

dear...
I never thought
I will love you
the way I do
right now


but somehow,
yes
you are now
my one and
only...

I tried so many times
countless of times
to be
the way you wish me
to be...

Changes
require efforts
and times
but if you wish
to leave,

although with
a bundle of pains
I will have to
let you walk away...

This will never be
easy for me
but if this decision makes
you happy
I will bear
the sadness...

for you
my love
anything
everything....

imy

Cheat Day

I was like want to slap my face so hard today! Usually people will take the cheat day after a week of going through diet routine but me, myself, I took a cheat day just after 2 days of diet! My godness, I feel so bad, so guilty...

When I entered my office this morning, my officemate, Yana bought us nasi lemak for breakfast (so thoughtful this young lady) and being one of my favourite food plus I don't have time to prepare my breakfast this morning, I was easily swept away with the aroma of nasi lemak then feeling guilty like hell and ate it happily. I swear it would be the last time I'm allowing such food to seduce me. After this no more...

Dear self, you should realise your critical condition. If you do not start now, you will forever be that way. The way in which even you yourself are ashamed with, so please, have a STRONG FAITH. It is not forever you can't eat all your favourite food. Just for a little while. Be patient and keep on the diet routine. You can do it. If you success, it is you who will be proud of yourself.

I should be more strict to myself. #promisetoself

SOP, diet and blackout!

How am I going to read and memorize all the SOP in one day...sigh~~~

Diet is ok so far, I manage to control myself yey! but the sad thing is I dont have time to work out. I should squeeze my time and find some to allocate for work out. I should not give myself any excuses. Yes! no more excuses dear self.

I already ramble on so many things then suddenly my office went blackout and all were gone, yey again!
See the funny side right ^^,

It's mid June 2013

Apa yang telah kamu capai sepanjang 6 bulan dalam tahun 2013 ini?

Perghhhh, soalan ini, kalau difikirkan balik, memang rasa macam ada orang tampar muka kiri kanan, makan dalam! Sebab honestly, to think about it, apa sangat yang aku dah buat dalam 6 bulan ni, sedih ok! I should be responsible to monitor my own life progress, but the truth is, all I can say, I almost do nothing significant to my life. sigh~~~~

I should do something about this because if not, my life can be ruined before I had ever notice it.

Hence, as for the first step, maybe I should list down what I want to achieve in the next month, next 3 months and before the end of this year. Yep, I should start to think about these lists.

make your life worth dear,

terlalu lama....

Rasanya, dah lama gila tak post anything kat blog, nasib baik masih ingat username and password, hahahaha..

hurm, ok, nak start tulis balik blog, dengan satu tujuan, untuk mengingatkan diri supaya sentiasa menjadikan hari ini lebih baik dari semalam.

Sebenarnya, something really bad happened last Friday which hit me really hard. So, I'm thinking, to start all over again but this time, a really serious one, like no body business.

N nak diet, serius diet. N sedar, sampai bila dah gemuk kan, baik macam mana pun, sweet macam mana pun, kalau gemuk, susah nak convince orang. Lagi satu, N rasa, cukuplah N kena hina bagai. N tak nak lagi sedih-sedih. N dah baca banyak blog mengenai kisah kejayaan orang yang gemuk jadi kurus. If they can, why I can't rite? 

So, may the force be with me  =) 

kena kuat semangat selalu!