2016

This post might be the last post for 2016. Even though there are still 20 more days to go before this year end, for me, I already meet the end of my life. Finally, I have not finish my long overdue Master. I am down, I am frustrated. Honestly I spent almost six years working on my Master. But it seems like I cant do it. Mostly because of the dissertation. Afraid of writing, to share piece of my thoughts, as if I feel my thoughts are not important. When I see my friends completed and graduated from their Master studies, I feel happy for them because I know the journey is tough and challenging. But, I am not happy for myself. I quit from my studies, after all the wee hours I spent to read and to assemble my assignments.

Dr. Mahathir once said, if you feel like quitting your study, take a look at how diligent your parents are; working to provide all your needs. I did. I swear I did. I try everything I can to ease them albeit of me not being so good daughter. I try to motivate myself, to coax myself and to push myself saying that if everyone else can do this, why can’t I. But definitely, unconsciously I have decided, I cant finish my study. How does it feels to let your parents down for two times? It sucks! It really makes me feel worthless T_T